i just woke up from a dream. the first part i have no memory of really, but i do remember sitting in my bathroom with my old friend mia and looking through i think it was nova scotia magazine. she and her husband had bought an ad in it that said hello to me. they were telling me i needed to come see them and that they knew i just wanted to have kids like them.

the next part i remember--and the part that woke me up--was i got on a plane with avram and my mom. actually i don't remember getting on the plane. i was just there with them. avram was behind me and my mom was in front of me. we started to go up in the air and then the plane started spinning out of control. all of the other people disappeared except my mom and avram. i was looking at my mom and trying to reach for avram. then avram appeared beside me. i told my mom through tears "why'd you make me get on this plane?" and then i told both of them "i love you i love you this is all so beautiful. good bye." and then avram got up and said "screw this, i'm not staying on this plane." and he got up and started walking out the back. everyone else had gone to the back and was walking out of the plane. i was following avram and next to me was this guy. the back of the plane just suddenly faded into a crowded movie theater. so we walked out of the plane into the movie theater. i turned to the guy next to me and said "is this real? are we really alive now?" and he said "i don't care. if i have to i'll just pretend." i woke up, and the first thing i thought was "where was my dad?" and then i felt like crying.